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Where, oh, where has David gone? Where, oh, where can he be?……


That about says it all 🙂

Clean though, isn’t it? So, scrubbing toilets aside, my life’s been fairly routine…….. Work. Eat. Sleep. Repeat….. I’m still on nights, which contributes to the routine. We hired, then fired two new girls for overnight. One was let go because she failed the background check, the other because she and her boyfriend were helping themselves to free stuff. New Girl #3 started this week, and she’s several months pregnant, so I’m thinking she may be temporary.

Not for nothing, and not saying we should discriminate against the breeders, but if I went into a job interview and said, “I plan on working here four to six months and then take a several month break. After which, I may or may not come back.”, I don’t think they’d give me the job….

… Just sayin’ 😛

Anyway, work is actually going quite well. I’ve been staying focused and being “mr responsible”, taking on new duties and pitching in whenever there’s been a crisis. I actually won a company award for “team member of the first quarter”, which I’m fairly proud of myself for. I got a little certificate and everything. My personal life is fine, no great advances, but no big drama either. I guess that’s why the big slump in blogging, I haven’t had much to bitch about. I’m making slow, if steady progress, working to make my life better. Which is good, but hardly exciting blogging material.

So, I’ll work on finding non-toilet related inspiration and update more often. Stay tuned for further developments 😉


Because that’s just the kind of mood I’m in:

I just got back from the gym. It was the first day doing the full workout since I hurt my knee and I officially kicked ass! At first I was going to play it safe and lower the weights on my leg routines, but once I got going, I was just like “Screw this, let’s push it”. Yes, there was pain, but not the “Ouch, I just injured myself” kind. More like the “I haven’t done this in a while” kind. It felt really good though. I wasn’t holding back at all and my knee was just fine. All in all, I’d say I’m back up to fighting form.

My workouts in general are going incredibly well. I’m really pushing myself and my body is responding and rising up to the challenge. I think I’ve found the right balance between work, exercise, and eating habits. I’ll have to do my weight and measurements for the month to see what my results are, but I feel pretty damned good at the moment.

I have this damned song stuck in my head and it just will NOT go away! I’m about ready to stick a screwdriver though my temple to stop it!… And why are there ninjas in the video?! it’s madness! Madness, I say!! Madness with multiple exclamation points!!!!!

Annnnyway, despite that, I’m in an excellent mood. I have the night off and in little while I shall be picking up the ever amazing Kendra. She has generously deigned to take a some time away from the new boyfriend and hang out with me for a bit. What with working nights and everything else, I haven’t been able to spend any time with my favorite niece lately, so this is happiness making.

Soooo yeah, Imma gonna go rot my brain on video games now 🙂

Ahhhh, a night off. It’s a bit weird to wake up and start my day at six in the evening, but I’d say I’m adjusting to working third shift quite well. I’ve had several of the first shift people comment on how energetic and cheerful I am when they come in. Heh, I think it annoys them a little. I’ve been fairly surprised at my energy level, both working overnights and in general, lately. I know I’ve said this before, but I think back to last year and working at Cartridge World… Hell, just my work history in general…. and I’m amazed by how good I feel. We’ve now passed the thirty day mark and I’m still feeling happy and enthusiastic about my job. I feel like I’ve undergone a rather profound change. I guess the work I’ve done in trying to improve myself is actually paying off. The depression medication, quitting drinking, regular exercise, eating (mostly) healthy, regular social contact….. Damn, who am I and what have I done with Dave?

Of course, it’s not all cherries and whipped cream. I had my first total asshole of a customer about five on Friday morning. I was working in the deli and this guy comes up and orders a buttered Portuguese roll. Simple enough, right? Before I started making it, I asked him (politely, of course) if he was aware we had a bunch of pre-buttered roll in a basket at the front of the store. His reply was “If I’m going to pay $149 for a buttered roll, I’m damned well going to get my money’s worth. You guys don’t put enough butter on your rolls and you’re ripping people off…” and proceeds to go on a rant about how we’re cheating the public by under-buttering our rolls. He then asked me if I was the one who buttered the rolls, which I am since that’s part of the night shift prep-work, and started attacking me personally like I was in the black market butter business, under-buttering the rolls and making off with the profits. At that point, I made a mistake. What I should have done was simply said that I was sorry the rolls weren’t to his satisfaction, but it was five in the morning, I had about four other things going on, and my mind wasn’t quite firring on all cylinders., so what I did say was “Well, I do put a goodly amount of butter on them, sir”. Like I said, that was a mistake. This guy now starts in on how I’m “copping an attitude” with him and he’ll report me to my manager, call the district manager, and I “don’t know who I’m messing with”. Well actually, I knew exactly who I was dealing with, a low to mid-level flunky with a crappy job that he hated who had decided he was going to try to dump his own misery onto me. So, staying polite and not bothering to respond to his threats, I showed him the roll I had buttered for him and asked if that was to his satisfaction. of course, it wasn’t, so I slathered on even more butter while mentally wishing him a happy heart attack (lots of butter with an extra helping of stress, oh boy!) and sent him on his merry way.

After that, I shrugged him off and continued with the things I needed to get done. My only worry was that he would actually call my manager, not because I thought I would get in trouble, but because she has enough to deal with without nuisance complaints. He didn’t follow through though. That type rarely does. They just want to spew their venom at the closest “safe” target. Still, people like that are a rarity and they don’t really get under my skin. All in all, I’m feeling really good… almost too damn good 😉

So, apparently the question I asked the other day was incomplete. The full question should have been; What’s worse, doing a job that’s beneath you, doing a job that’s beneath you badly, or getting fired from a job that’s beneath you?  Yep, the guy who refused to clean the ladies room was let go. His refusal wasn’t the only reason he got fired, apparently there were other incidents, but my report was that famous final straw. The manager asked me what my opinion was of him as a worker and I answered honestly (but diplomatically) and the decision was made to let him go. I was also asked what I thought about the night manager, who also ended up getting fired the next day. Basically, it was shaking out the dead wood now that we’ve been open a few weeks. I’m happy to say that my wood is not dead. 😉

I suppose I should feel guilty for my part in their being let go, but I don’t. They made their own beds. In truth, it felt good having my opinion asked and listened to. That’s one of the things I like about this manager, she asks for input and actually listens to it. That’s refreshing after all the lips service to listening I had to deal with in the past.

Speaking of work (have I been speaking of anything else lately?), I got a notice from the Department of Labor telling me that I was eligible for an extension of my unemployment benefits. Yep, if I was still unemployed as of July 6th, I could start to collect money again. Not to sound all paranoid and conspiracy minded, but two weeks after I find a job they decided to extend unemployment?!? What about the seven months I was on welfare and going deeper into debt just to pay my bills? Grrrrrr.

In answer to Shannon‘s question about my avatar, I thought I’d post a couple of L’Arc~en~Ciel‘s videos, featuring the seriously sexy Hyde (And I say that with full confidence in my heterosexuality. Face it, the man is gorgeous.)

*Edit just to make Lez happy:

Well then, I’m feeling muuuuuch better now. After a couple weeks of sleeping way too much and isolating myself as much as humanly possible, I feel like I’ve turned a major corner. Saturday night, I had some incredibly vivid, violent and angry dreams. It’s all a swirl of confusion now, but some were memories, some extremely fantastic, all melding together in a whirlwind of emotion. I remember little snippets about Cartridge World, my old job at the video store, screaming at my dad, my mom, my sister, battling legions of enemies… Just a weird river of frustration, anger, and violence.

When I woke up Sunday morning I felt…. clear headed for the first time in weeks, actually awake and ready to start the day. I rolled out of bed, got my stuff together, and went to the gym for the first time in almost a month. Man, it really felt good to sweat and push myself physically…. and to feel like I was doing something positive again. Today, I was up at five am and back at the gym again. Definitely a good sign. It hurt and it’s going to take a while to get back into the groove of working out, but my head’s still clear and I feel….. energized…. Ready to take on the world.

It’s a good feeling. I’m going to savor it
This song does a fairly good job of expressing my mood right now. Although, really, rage isn’t what I’m feeling. More like the rat on the wheel, running running running, never getting anywhere.
Meh, I don’t really have anything to say. Move along, nothing to see here.

Not much to say at the moment. I’ll let music convey my mood: